For the last couple of months, I have been getting messages and calls to attune to my divine masculine energy. As I have said before, I don’t mess with the divine masculine, but I once again am getting cards that are crying out for it. When I first started my rosary work, I cut out everything that linked the prayers to God and the Divine Masculine. Truly. I just don’t vibe on this.
That being said, it keeps coming up. Upon inspection, I found out that the last time I wrote about this was on the Cancer New Moon, and as I write this, we are in the Cancer Full Moon (readings available here). The timing of this is blowing my mind, especially since Cancer is known for being very maternal, emotionally intelligent, associated with the moon, and generally feminine in energy.
Something that has been coming up a lot in random moments is Christ consciousness. I have very much put up the wall and boundaries with said energy, and yet it keeps showing up. I am not touching it. I am just observing at this point.
I think the most interesting thing about this call to masculine energy has also been my pull to being better about my finances. It is a very methodical, logical routine that requires me to cut out a lot of the emotion, but alas, my moon is in Aries in the 2nd house. Finances make me more emotional than most things, if I am honest.
I am not sure what all of this means or how it is going to show up, when I am going to tap in, or how it will manifest. All I know is that I am currently observing and noticing. One thing that I have noticed in terms of acceptance is that I am still listening to When the Heart Waits despite the constant use of the word God. I have read Sue Monk Kidd’s other memoirs so I understand her pov, I feel, but in the past, I would have immediately DNF’d the book for the constant use.
There have been many moments over the last 6 months where I have wondered if the divine masculine isn’t already just coded into the divine feminine. We have examples of the driven, calculating, strategic feminine in Artemis and Athena. We have examples of that masculine rage and destruction in goddesses such as The Morrigan. We see the alchemizing Magician energy in Hekate, Persephone, etc. We see leadership in so many including Mary Magdalene. The divine feminine is all about alchemizing, creating, and abundance. At what point did we decide a divine masculine WAS needed?
When I think of divine masculine energy, I actually struggle with the idea of it being personified. I am fine with goddesses, feminine energies being personified, etc. But I struggle with the masculine. I think that I am better at seeing the masculine through the 4 elements. Fire and air are more masculine to me, while earth and water feel more feminine, but you know I could make a case for all of them being feminine and only feminine, haha.
Are there so many wounds in my life that I truly can’t access the masculine within me? When I do feel any sort of attraction to the masculine, it is often violent and rageful. It is not something I am proud of, and I often save that for ranting with my besties that I know won’t have me committed. But in terms of healthy, and divine masculinity? Nope. Can’t say I’ve ever been able to access it, and I wonder if it is from wounds and trauma, or if I am just not here for those lessons in this lifetime.
This was a weird love letter, but sometimes I want to bounce ideas and thoughts I’m having off you all. I don’t and won’t always come with answers, but sometimes just questions and observations. I am curious as to your thoughts on the Divine Masculine. Do you connect with it? If so, how? If not, why not?
Wishing you well this week! May your life offer what you need in this moment.
With love,
Aventurine ✨
I think a lot of us struggle with masculinity because we are bombarded by it constantly in society and in many of our cultural practices. I don’t know about you, but I grew up with a lot of internalized sexism as ideas of being “girly” were frivolous and weak while being a “tomboy” was supposedly what made young girls more interesting (ugh) so I like many women grew up rejecting femininity in ourselves. Now we are trying to course correct and celebrate the feminine (yay) and how that can exist in all people… but maybe some of us over correct? I definitely have a complicated relationship with men in my life and how they use their masculinity to control and subject others to their will. So I struggle too, but I try to think, if there is a divine form of masculine, do we see it from protectiveness? Actions that generate security and safety of others? The ability to move forward with an idea and make something of it? Since the masculine is associated with external energy, is it the way we all have the ability to be extroverted with our actions when it really matters? I think the patriarchy really screwed with our ideas of masculine and feminine 😆 hope these words make sense!