I am feeling this. I haven't pulled cards in a while, I had surgery about 3 weeks ago and I am finally feeling a bit more like myself. But yeah, I have been in a holding pattern as I figured out how to stop fighting my body's need for rest and sleep, and while I figured out how to ask for things I need, things that I can't yet do for myself, and accepting the help. I need a chaperone to leave the house because I feel weak from staying in bed so much. I have chronic illnesses but I (stubbornly) push through those. This has been a lesson in listening to my body and in acceptance.
It's been hard to be away from work. As a trainer and as a union steward in a workplace that's mired in change for stakeholder optics and massive uncertainty, my inner parentified child who has an inflated sense of responsibility is freaking out about what we might be returning to.
But in the meantime, I am trying to stay in the present, to rest, and to wait for the path to unfold.
Omgoodness! Please rest! Surgery is already so so exhausting and hard on our bodies. Sad that to chronic illness? Extra rest!
I understand what you’re saying though. I had surgery a few years back, and I had to leave my classroom for a week. I was sooooo anxious about the kids and the state of my room. It turned out to be fine, and I was able to focus on healing up. Although I learned I should have taken an additional week off because my body didn’t heal quite the way it was meant to. Your body is more important than work 💜 and thank you for your union work! Unions are our lifeboats right now!!!
Thank you! It's just so weird how we have been conditioned to feel like all of these other things matter more than our own physical/mental/spiritual well-being. I really appreciate the thanks for my union work! Unfortunately our contract has just been unilaterally terminated by our employer so I am having a lot of feelings about that too. Never a dull moment! But I have been sleeping and resting while I can. 💕
Employers are the worst. I’m so so sorry! That’s so infuriating. Fight the good fight as you can. We fight together 1) for power in numbers 2) so there are many people with many skills and abilities. Lean on others as you rest knowing that you can come back stronger 💜💜💜 I hope your contract is reinstated and BETTER!
It’s the story we tell ourselves about how our life should look that fu*ks us up the most. Or
In my case, the story others told me…
Since I was a kid I’ve had a life full of magick folk. Which I feel very lucky about. But they’ve all told me the same thing, for 40 years…. And I’m still searching/waiting for this gift they all say I have.
Sometimes I think I’d be a lot more content had they not shared that with me.
Words cast spells… so I am much more conscious of this in my days now.
I stopped doing others cards and made my own. But I didn’t make them to tell stories of far away places or of magic without a map. They ask me questions to ponder, and come up with my own answers. I took my power back and stopped looking outside of myself for answers.
Other than astrology I don’t barter readings anymore.
I try to live in the now and create a life that is filled with joy. By joy i mean little moments. Mostly including laughter or conversation with my kids. Like you, I ’m still working on the rest.
Maybe I’ll stumble upon this “gift” they all spoke about, maybe I won’t, but at least now I’ll be content with loving the life I have rather than the one they told stories about.
I just want to add that I do believe life is only understood backwards, and I do know that being aware sparked a curiosity in me that lead me down a wonderful path. I have learnt so much and met so many wonderful people on my journey to self discovery.
Thank you for your insights and sharing ✨ therein lies the problem for me: I’m a destination person, rarely a journey person. Though hiking this last decade has helped me slow down a bit on that 😅
Feeling this so much 💜 what is transformation when you no longer have stability & can’t find the little things that kept you grounded? It feels like the cards are mocking me 🫠
You’re in a huge moment of flux and change. It’s been so prolonged. I totally understand the feeling of being mocked. So much of what is happening has nothing to do with us, but instead with greedy power hungry small-dick energy.
Sending you the BIGGEST hugs. I hope things turn around soon.
I know this probably isn’t ideal, but places like Tutor Me Education are always hiring. It’s online tutoring for k-12, sometimes even college. The pay is crap (ask me how i know 😵💫), but it’s at least some kind of income, and it’s remote. If you end up doing that, lmk. I can point you in the direction of a bunch of free lessons resources. I can also help you get transferable skills listed on your résumé if you need 💜
I am feeling this. I haven't pulled cards in a while, I had surgery about 3 weeks ago and I am finally feeling a bit more like myself. But yeah, I have been in a holding pattern as I figured out how to stop fighting my body's need for rest and sleep, and while I figured out how to ask for things I need, things that I can't yet do for myself, and accepting the help. I need a chaperone to leave the house because I feel weak from staying in bed so much. I have chronic illnesses but I (stubbornly) push through those. This has been a lesson in listening to my body and in acceptance.
It's been hard to be away from work. As a trainer and as a union steward in a workplace that's mired in change for stakeholder optics and massive uncertainty, my inner parentified child who has an inflated sense of responsibility is freaking out about what we might be returning to.
But in the meantime, I am trying to stay in the present, to rest, and to wait for the path to unfold.
Omgoodness! Please rest! Surgery is already so so exhausting and hard on our bodies. Sad that to chronic illness? Extra rest!
I understand what you’re saying though. I had surgery a few years back, and I had to leave my classroom for a week. I was sooooo anxious about the kids and the state of my room. It turned out to be fine, and I was able to focus on healing up. Although I learned I should have taken an additional week off because my body didn’t heal quite the way it was meant to. Your body is more important than work 💜 and thank you for your union work! Unions are our lifeboats right now!!!
Thank you! It's just so weird how we have been conditioned to feel like all of these other things matter more than our own physical/mental/spiritual well-being. I really appreciate the thanks for my union work! Unfortunately our contract has just been unilaterally terminated by our employer so I am having a lot of feelings about that too. Never a dull moment! But I have been sleeping and resting while I can. 💕
Employers are the worst. I’m so so sorry! That’s so infuriating. Fight the good fight as you can. We fight together 1) for power in numbers 2) so there are many people with many skills and abilities. Lean on others as you rest knowing that you can come back stronger 💜💜💜 I hope your contract is reinstated and BETTER!
As always thank you so much! It means a lot to me to know we still have support for unions!
It’s the story we tell ourselves about how our life should look that fu*ks us up the most. Or
In my case, the story others told me…
Since I was a kid I’ve had a life full of magick folk. Which I feel very lucky about. But they’ve all told me the same thing, for 40 years…. And I’m still searching/waiting for this gift they all say I have.
Sometimes I think I’d be a lot more content had they not shared that with me.
I know that energy flows where focus goes.
Words cast spells… so I am much more conscious of this in my days now.
I stopped doing others cards and made my own. But I didn’t make them to tell stories of far away places or of magic without a map. They ask me questions to ponder, and come up with my own answers. I took my power back and stopped looking outside of myself for answers.
Other than astrology I don’t barter readings anymore.
I try to live in the now and create a life that is filled with joy. By joy i mean little moments. Mostly including laughter or conversation with my kids. Like you, I ’m still working on the rest.
Maybe I’ll stumble upon this “gift” they all spoke about, maybe I won’t, but at least now I’ll be content with loving the life I have rather than the one they told stories about.
I just want to add that I do believe life is only understood backwards, and I do know that being aware sparked a curiosity in me that lead me down a wonderful path. I have learnt so much and met so many wonderful people on my journey to self discovery.
The journey IS the destination.
Thank you for your insights and sharing ✨ therein lies the problem for me: I’m a destination person, rarely a journey person. Though hiking this last decade has helped me slow down a bit on that 😅
Feeling this so much 💜 what is transformation when you no longer have stability & can’t find the little things that kept you grounded? It feels like the cards are mocking me 🫠
You’re in a huge moment of flux and change. It’s been so prolonged. I totally understand the feeling of being mocked. So much of what is happening has nothing to do with us, but instead with greedy power hungry small-dick energy.
Sending you the BIGGEST hugs. I hope things turn around soon.
I know this probably isn’t ideal, but places like Tutor Me Education are always hiring. It’s online tutoring for k-12, sometimes even college. The pay is crap (ask me how i know 😵💫), but it’s at least some kind of income, and it’s remote. If you end up doing that, lmk. I can point you in the direction of a bunch of free lessons resources. I can also help you get transferable skills listed on your résumé if you need 💜