Six of Cups: Recognizing & Healing Childhood Wounds
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Now onto the meat of this love letter!
I have been filling my days with cutting up some Richard Scarry books for collage. When I was sick and stressing about something. I can’t remember what anymore, I found myself scrolling IG and specifically scrolling through the Richard Scarry fan accounts. The pastels, the neutrals, the comfort of joyous childhood memories had a noticeable impact on my nervous system. I went from panic attack levels to a more baseline anxiety level.
I decided after that episode that I wanted to have some collage material with my favorite shows and books from childhood. I was a PBS kid and a Nick Jr. kid. Barney and Friends was my jam, and I will still fight anyone who shit talks my friend the purple dinosaur. He gave me every life skill and some academic skills.
After 2 days of cutting out this current book, I was showing my progress to loved ones because I just think the illustrations are so cute. I got a couple mentions of how good my cutting is. “Wow! These look great! These look professional.” The surge of pride I felt in myself to have something that I had always been ridiculed for in school to be complimented.
Within a day of those compliments, the Six of Cups came flying out. There was a message here. It wasn’t just have fun. It wasn’t just inner child. It wasn’t just gratitude or the beginnings of puppy love. It was so much deeper. Seeing this image, I saw the student, the preschooler, the little girl who was excited for life up until all of the criticisms.
Why did those compliments feel so good? I’m not usually a prideful person. In fact, success amnesia is a pretty debilitating symptom of my ADHD. The Six of Cups opened that up for me. It was confirmation that a piece of my broken self esteem had been taped back to the whole. I had been criticized and mocked by kids and adults alike for not being good at art, being unable to even color the correct way, and definitely for not being able to cut prettily.
I do not have great fine motor skills. I don’t have very good eyesight or depth perception. I have ADHD, and my impulsivity as a kid wasn’t as intense as many others, but when it came to task completion so I could be done and go play? I did whatever needed to be done so I could move on to my break. Read: Sloppy work.
In the beginning of 2021, I spent countless hours teaching myself how to cut properly so I could make the collages (The Oracle Portals) I wanted to make without the ugly borders on stickers and such. I would choose the most intricate stickers I had and get lost listening to my audiobooks completely dissociated from the real world. I would forget to eat, drink water, text people back. I was lost in my own world of cutting off borders and audiobooks. The practice and dedication has paid off. Look at the Eight of Pentacles in action!
Four years later, a Six of Cups later, I am seeing a new message in the card. It is not just playfulness, reparenting, etc. It can be a message of healing, of tangible healing. I show my art projects to a select few. I show them with fear and apprehension each time.
The Six of Cups will always have aspects of nostalgia, play, childhood, reparenting, and inner child work. Cutting out nostalgic images, hearing the praise, and realizing that I did the thing little me wanted to do and couldn’t WITH some of little me’s favorite characters? Magic. Plain and simple.For me, it now also is a symbol of healing childhood wounds that cut deep and took away confidence. I can’t wait to get this first collage done in my Creativity Journal by
, and when I do, I’ll show it to you.This full moon may have you in your feels about childhood wounds. If it is safe, consider sitting with them. What action might you be able to take towards relearning, unlearning, and affirming your value and place in the world?
Have you ever had a moment like mine where you have felt a piece come back to the whole? I’d love to hear about it below!
Wishing you well this week! May your life offer what you need in this moment.
With love,
Aventurine ✨
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