Swimming Through Molasses
Pisces Season
It is the Pisces New Moon today, and I am feeling just as lethargic and apathetic as I have since Pisces Season began. The last 3 weeks have felt like trying to swim through molasses. No matter how hard I try to move, I am stuck. It is also my Hanged One year so that could easily be part of this energy of stagnancy.
This year, I have noticed a pattern about Pisces Season for me, and that’s that I have no chill… at all. Every year, I am now noticing, at this time, I am a raging bitch. I have no patience for anything, for anyone, for myself. Nothing. I have nothing to give during Pisces Season, and it affects every part of my life. I am not sure what it is other than seasonal depression trying to end me, pure burnout from the school year, or if it’s just Pisces Season… heavy, wet, drowsy, depressing. There’s no fire in Pisces energy like there is in Scorpio energy… or even Cancer’s crabby energy. It’s just wet and heavy.
Truly, up until this year, I hadn’t noticed the toll these four weeks take on my mental and physical health. Now that I am aware of it, I am going to start rationing my PTO differently for next year. I am going to take weekly days off during Pisces Season so that I can reset and regulate. I am going to give into dopamine seeking through food rather than shame myself. Once a pattern is known, it can be budgeted for and accommodated.
My New Moon messages are giving me hope. I got multiple cards with hummingbirds on them, and I need the joyful and playful energy of those birds right now. Combined with the words dance and adventure, I just have a feeling laughter and fun are coming.
The Black Moon Lilith Deck gave me some powerful and stunning divine feminine energy, and I can wait to see how that unfolds. This is quickly becoming one of my favorite decks. The goddesses I work closely with also showed up in my tree cards, and that also makes me excited. Seeing that confirmation makes me feel supported and connected.
I am also noticing a lot of warm, fiery colors, and I am missing that spark of passion right now. This new moon is hopeful, even if my brain and body want nothing more than to shut down and hide from everything. Hope still exists, despite the chemical imbalances.
One last thing that I have learned so far this Pisces Season is that my brain will be more willing to shower if I romanticize it. If I promise to use the fufu stuff after. If I only have the heat lamp on for a softer light with a candle going. If I can see the pretty flowers as I get in and out. Now, my brain likes a soft lo-fi to go with it… Is this my soft girl era? Can I get a refund? Honestly, this is a lot of work. Can I just go back to being able to finish an everything shower in 7 minutes and a rinse off in 2? BUT! I’m showered and more consistently so I guess I shouldn’t complain too much.
What patterns, new information, new noticings are coming up for you this Pisces Season?
Wishing you well this week! May your life offer what you need in this moment.
With love,
Aventurine ✨
Thank you for sharing your experience with Pieces and how you are finding ways to do what you need. This year has been so rough on so many levels finding ways to cope is very important. My escape has been to play animal crossing, and I'm also feeling like I'm entering my cozy girl era :)
These photos really capture something of Pisces season. Hopefully Aries season brings you renewed energy!