New Moon in Gemini

The Importance of Time and Space

Red Huckleberries

I love the new moon. I know a lot of people are especially attached to the full moon phase of the moon, but for me, it’s the new moon. It is a fresh start, new beginnings, and the chance to start over yet again. I am much better at task initiation than I am at task finalization, especially if it is a long task. Full moons are that halfway point when I am already burnt out and exhausted, and I just have a hard time connecting to them.

This New Moon in Gemini had me excited because I decided to take the day off and enjoy myself and really focus on myself and filling my cup.

Black Cohosh

I went for a walk yesterday, 7 miles, and I was in heaven. I saw 4 deer and collected both roses petals and Doug Fir needles for some hydrosols. You may remember that last year I messed up my Doug Fir water, but I was successful this year! I can’t wait to use it for protection and grounding.

My plan for the new moon was simple: walk, pull cards, journal, hydrosols, relax. I did all of those things, but it was a Gemini new moon so of course things had to get a little messy, and let me tell you… I’m still in a mood from it.

Pacific Waterleaf

I am doing this thing where I am leaving a stable job with all of the benefits. I am doing it because of a technicality in certification. After yesterday though? I am no longer grieving the loss. The disrespect that I have received daily for years now has hit its boiling point, and I wasn’t even at work yesterday. So while I am in a mood and filled with apathy, I am grateful for the experience because now I know for a fact that I have made the right choice to leave such a toxic environment.

Fringe Cups

I am definitely a person who feels deeply, like more than most of the people that I have encountered in my daily life. I have strong Scorpio and Aries placements. Emotions are basically how I run my life. I also have an Aquarius rising, and I feel like that is where I am often able to access the more detached part of thinking, that air sign.

I feel like because I have such strong fire and water placement, I can process forever and still not ever come to a concluding feeling because everything feels so strongly. Because of this, I often get stuck in bad situations for longer because I am thinking that I am overreacting because I live so much of my life through the lens of emotion.

This Gemini New Moon has me out of that watery, fiery expression and process of emotion and into clarity. I am now truly seeing that I have not been overreacting. I have been bullied and triggered into dissociation and debilitating pain almost daily for 3 years. It is time to leave. It is time to protect myself. It is time to be able to access safety so I can access clarity and flow rather than always being in a state of fawning and freezing.

I am going to miss the friends and allies I do have. I am looking forward to blocking all the people who have actively hurt me over the last 3 years, especially yesterday because they decided to power trip while I was out. This new moon has been so much more intense than my normal new moon experiences. I am sitting with that which feels a lot like numbness.

As I wrote this post in my head on my walk yesterday, it was a very a different post. Life happens, and I do not regret taking the day off despite the drama that happened because that has led me to truly feel grounded and not guilty about my choices. Five more work days, and I am done.

How was your new moon? How are you feeling? What has been filling your cup lately?

Wishing you well this week! May your life offer what you need in this moment.

With love,

Aventurine ✨