June was a whirlwind of activity, changes, grief, and surprisingly… forgiveness?
I submitted my resignation last week, and I plan on applying to sub in the exact same district and to talk to the same hateful HR. Income issues: solved! With that resignation came grief for the loss of my insurances. Those who have been following along on IG know that I have been working hard on my teeth this spring/summer, and I have lost access to that and to affordable (see: free) access to birth control. There is grief, but there is also forgiveness of myself for giving up this financial stability for what will hopefully be more freedom.
I have spent a lot of this week getting my temporary office together at my partner’s house. I am still practicing living here, and it is going much better than I expected. Having multiple stories and my own space to retreat to has been very helpful and regulating. It is a much smaller space than my room/office at home, but I am able to function in it fairly well. I don’t have everything with me, just what I needed for my class I was supposed to teach today (7/1)!
That class I was supposed to teach? Yeah, I was supposed to, but no one signed up. It’s all good. It’s part of the small business owner experience and the experience of starting out. I forgive myself for this “failure,” and I welcome the lessons from it. I am actually proud of myself for not taking this personally and being able to have it stay as business.
The business with which I was partnering is also going through some major changes. I think as they transition and get settled, we will reschedule for around Mabon or Samhain.
This last week, I have also gotten back into walking and spending more time outside. I’m back at my roots at Mt. Tabor. It has been really nice to walk up there and spend time with my tree, ground into the soil, the grass, and do my morning prayer journal, do my rosary practice, and my daily tarot practice.
I wrote about The Tower for Friday, and I have really been noticing a lot of people resonating with The Tower, more reels about it, and more people within their Tower moments. There are also moments of Death (change) that aren’t necessarily the intensity of The Tower. These synchronicities have been very comforting, especially as I continue to war with myself over the life changing decisions I have to make… each with their own pros and cons.
As we begin July, I really want to continue prioritizing rest. We have a really busy and social month starting with today! What was supposed to be a business venture day for me is instead turning into a day of connection with friends. The Boys’ foster mama and sissy are coming over along with another work friend to visit the babies. On the 4th, we’re hosting a game night. Next week, we have 4 of my partner’s besties coming into town for 5 days. Then we will be going to Canada later in the month. This is a lot. This is a lot for both of us, but with rest and time to regulate and recharge, I know we can get through it.
I will also be working on getting my Ko-Fi more updated, creating content that centers my wares, and writing here! I have had so many ideas this spring, and I feel like I have forgotten all of them. I miss being more present here. I appreciate everyone’s patience as I have been settling into kitten mom life.
Finally, I want to prioritize joyful memories. I want to be present, happy, and relaxed. I love hanging out with my friends and laughing sometimes getting started is the hardest part as my anxiety flares. I love eating and drinking cute little meals and treats. I am so excited to go to Vancouver, BC and explore with my partner. We are both very agreeable about what to do, and I know those memories are going to be fun, even as we experience the usual travel fatigue.
What are you looking forward to in July? Let me know below!
Wishing you well this week! May your life offer what you need in this moment.
With love,
Aventurine ✨
Love the sentiment in this article! It is good to accept that life is difficult but also see the good stuff.
I am looking forward to settling in to my new place and more importantly getting back to being myself 😊