As I write, this the New Moon in Cancer is happening. When you read this, we’ll be a couple days out, but you can still get a New Moon Reading if you’d like! They’re so fun to do. I do them each month for myself and spend about 8 hours journaling 8 pages or so. It’s such a grounding ritual. The new moon readings I offer, are essentially a digital (and pared down) version of what I do for myself. They’re meant to inspire, guide, and be an altar in and of themselves. The PDF can be used for vision boards, as a discrete altar, journaling, etc. They’re meant to be used as interactive art.
I have been very disconnected from my spiritual writings, and I am not sure why. For 2 years, I was on it every single week overflowing with ideas, inspirations, critiques, feelings. Now, I am listless and struggling to come up with anything good. I accept that this is part of the process, but it is a bummer because I love my Substack. Anyone who is close to me irl knows that I love this space as I rarely shut up about it.
The new moon is bringing some pretty heavy changes again to home. They’re not bad. They’re just changes.
My partner and I grew up not going to the doctor due to cost. Going to the doctor now as an adult is a new habit to form, and for me? It’s a terrifying one. I have a huge needle phobia, and as a CIS woman, I am often gaslit into my symptoms being just a factor of my anxiety disorder. Despite the fact that I only go to the doctor maybe once a year, I am seen as hysterical even if I am calmly and clearly explaining my symptoms. My partner has been to the doctor 4 times in 11 years, and before that it had been ONCE in 20.
The changes at home stem from my partner’s doctor visit this week. He is pre diabetic. There are genetics at play. There are bad habits. There is capital t Trauma at play as well.
I say all this because in my (disordered eating, judgmental) family, diabetes has always been treated as a shortcoming and a failure rather than what it is: a health condition that has many nuances including systemic racism. I am actively working to remind myself of those nuances and change my initial reaction from FAILURE to multiple lenses and problem solving.
CHANGE. It is my death year.
CHANGE. It is my year to really release.
CHANGE. It is my year to say goodbye forever to what no longer serves.
CHANGE.
This new moon is bringing dietary changes and changes in movement and motivations. Again, these are not bad. They just come with the weight of medical trauma for me and food trauma for my partner. It’s going to be an emotional road on top of job hunting and his school year being an absolute shit show due to budget cuts.
Starting last night, we are walking 3-5 evenings a week after dinner. It’s not a long walk, but it is a lot of incline which will get out hearts beating. This morning, I started with my at home, no tools/weights strength exercises again. I already hurt. I spent hours yesterday researching what he and I can both eat considering that we have very different dietary needs/restrictions and food likes/dislikes. I want to keep rice as an option to honor his love of it and the singular cultural tie he has to either side of his lineage.
I am also going to try and get myself on a better content schedule. I used to be incredibly rigid about it. I would have an entire month planned out, and I would execute batched content every Saturday. I want to get back to that. I want to be connected again.
I also am dying to do a full purge of goods in the house. Get rid of some books, offload some art supplies, pare down the linen closet. This Cancer New Moon really has me looking at home, at my body, and at my desires around them.
Goals:
Learn about lower carb cooking options
Exercise 3-5 days per week
Better routines around content creation
Purge and reorganize
This was definitely a personal post and not super spiritual, but it is not lost on me that all of these at home changes are occurring at the time of the Cancer New Moon. On new moons, I work with Hekate. I will be asking for her support during this time as we are at a crossroads for health.
What are YOUR hopes and dreams from the lunar cycle? If you know about low carb eating, please let me know your fave recipes! I will have to adapt them to the 8 veggies that my partner eats and being gluten, dairy, shellfish, and nut free for me, but I would appreciate any ideas! Right now I feel overwhelmed.
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Wishing you well this week! May your life offer what you need in this moment.
With love,
Aventurine ✨
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This cancer new moon finds me reflecting on my career and professional journey. I've experienced some very difficult months and I'm feeling like I am starting to climb out of the fog and ready to set intentions for the rest of the journey. The summer months also bring my attention to my home and family since the kids are home and we don't have very structured routines. Thank you for this personal share 💜