Alignment within Retrogrades

My Most Accurate Tarot Reading Yet

Nov 17, 2025

Before we hop in, we have the Scorpio New Moon on Wednesday and Thursday (a new moon on my bday?! I’m so excited). You can sign up for a new moon reading.

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Jupiter and Mercury both just stationed retrograde. You can get the tarot spreads for free here. There are 4 additional celestial bodies that are also retrograde right now. This can feel like an overwhelming time especially if you are used to being on the go, hustling, and fighting for productivity. There is a lot of fear around retrogrades, but if you’re open to change, truly open, you may be shown confirmation of the path you’ve been scared to take or even the opening of a path you’ve never expected because the veil of illusion is being lifted.

My talented friend

Brandy Was Here

has been posting a lot about alignment, personal branding, and authenticity. Every time she posts, my brain kicks on. I start seeing my own path, my missteps, and what is holding me back. She recently posted this note that starts with “Alignment feels like grace. Hustle feels like punishment.” Those two sentences hit me hard. I began really thinking about how hard working has always been for me. Subscribe to Brandy if you haven’t already.

How hard having 7 jobs was. How hard it was to write papers about things I didn’t care about just to get through school. How hard it was to keep showing up for work just because I needed the money even though my bosses were abusive. How hard it was to be in a school when I do love teaching, but the cruelty that is involved within every part of the education system (private and public) weighed me down like cement blocks. My soul was crushed daily as I fought to advocate for my students. My partner loves his job and loves teaching. I love the idea of teaching, but the reality is too much for my soul. I thought teaching in the education system was in alignment. It wasn’t. It was punishment.

What does feel like grace, abundance, alignment? How does feel fulfilling, joyful, and authentic? Divination for other people. I have been reading tarot for 8 years this Christmas. My practice, my knowledge, my intuition, my skill for it has grown astronomically. Tarot has been the Eight of Pentacles in my life, continually learning, leaning in, expanding in order to improve. There will never be perfection, but there will always be progress.

I had the most accurate cold reading I’ve ever had the other day. A friend asked me to read for their coworker. Let’s call this coworker Eleanora. Eleanora has some really interesting energy. She seem to intuitively know when her energy needs to be cleansed but has not yet figured out how to do it safely. Instead, she gives that energy to others, like the opposite of a succubus. She gives that bad energy, that bad luck to her friends and coworkers, and suddenly those close to her are being hit by cars, mugged, etc. I have never heard of anything like this. If anyone has a name for this, let me know. I keep calling her a demon as a place holder… which is mean.

I pulled some cards as a favor to my friend. From bed, healing from my vaccinations, I asked what energy was surrounding Eleanora, where it stemmed from, and how to cleanse it. The wildest thing happened. 3 out of the first 5 cards had womb spaces in the imagery (shown above). I had this innate feeling that this bad energy, or luck as she calls it, is something that has been emanating from within her from birth, but here is something that I won’t do as a reader, as a human. I will not blame a baby. Babies are innocent.

I texted by friend the reading and just mentioned that there was a lot of unhealed trauma and unprocessed feelings from within her womb space. I talked about how it had been there from childhood as I pulled the lamb. I continued to read the cards, to read The Chariot as she ran away from what bothered her. I looked at what needed to be done, how to cleanse, and everything pointed to grounding back into the earth. Instead of giving her energy to her friends and loved ones, she needs to be asking the earth to transmute that energy as told by the earthworm and The Star.

The response was overwhelming. Eleanora told my friend that she comes from a lot of mother wounds, womb wounds you could say. Her mom is an addict who has caused a lot of harm and many scars on Eleanora. She has been running. She has been hiding from the hurt. She is ready to begin healing, especially after this reading. Knowing that the Eight of Pentacles and The Star are in her reading just reinforces my interpretations that the Eight of Pentacles is about self dedication and The Star is about prioritization.

Why do I tell you this story? It is not to brag, but instead to illustrate what alignment as grace, as flow can look like. Also to illustrate that while retrogrades can be intimidating, they are nothing to fear. Leaning into our fears, to trusting what we normally wouldn’t during a retrograde can open doors. The doors that this random reading has opened are 1) a new tarot offering: custom readings, 2) potential new clients as this story circulates their workplace, and 3) me really and truly believing in my abilities and my value as a tarot reader.

I want to be a professional tarot reader. I want my tarot reading to pay my bills. I love it. I love helping people. I love guiding. I love talking to people about tarot. I love integrating the knowledge I have gained about symbolism, animals, plants, astrology, numerology, goddesses, and tarot into one conversation. Eight years of almost daily practice has declared my skills and accuracy far beyond my wildest dreams when I first started.

The messages have been there. The messages about authenticity, about alignment, about rewriting the stories we tell ourselves, and about major changes. I have needed the proof that these were about leaning into tarot more. I haven’t believed the proof when I read for friends because I figure I know too much about who they are for it to be valid. This was the verification I needed to finally believe in my own abilities.

Thank you for allowing me to share another personal story with you.

Have you ever had an experience like this where you have been doubting and doubting and doubting until you are finally slapped in the face with validation? Share those experiences below.

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